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postTraumaticStressDisorder

For thirty years I struggled confused and alone. There wasn't much information about PTSD, so twenty or so years into my illness when I sought help I was diagnosed over a ten year span with badAttitude, drugDependence, cronicDepression, manicDepressive, biPolarDisorder, obsessiveCompulsive, schizoPhrenia, anxietyDisorder, and poorCharacter. In the mid80's I was diagnosed PTSD. I didn't have any idea what that was. At the turn of the 21st Century information started becoming available. There is no cure, but at least I understood what I'm dealing with better.

A few years ago my daughter was diagnosed add/ADHD. I was reacquainted with my son who was treated for it from the age of four or five. Then I found out my oldest daughter was being treated for biPolar. The symptoms of all these overlap such that their diagnosis is subjective relevant to the diagnostician's specialty and experiences.

My title is a link to ptsd searchResults from dogPile. The following is from a closed forumPost.

  • PTSD = quick to criticize...but not good at taking criticism!
  • PTSD = maintain a defensive posture.
  • PTSD = percieve oneself as a victim.
  • PTSD = all white or all black...all now or never...all good or all bad...all right or all wrong...etc.
  • PTSD = hypersensitive to any hint of rejection.
  • PTSD = control freak stuff...my way or the highway.
  • PTSD = adverse effect of wild emotions upon cognition.
  • PTSD = serious lack of trust.
  • PTSD = unreasonable guilt problems.
  • PTSD = low threshold of anger.
  • PTSD = automated selection of dysfunctional respones...coping strategies...solutions.
  • PTSD = mercurial mood swings.
  • PTSD = poor response to catalogued stimuli.
  • PTSD = alienation by isolation.
  • PTSD = self-defeating behavior and self-sabotague.
  • PTSD = avoidance.
  • PTSD = leads to so many things that produce some pretty crappy interpersonal relationships

Understanding, I, we...you have some or all of these sad traits...Well, it seems that we need to take care in what we say and how we digest the response.

I use a lot of humor...I wonder if some of you see the humor or ...take offense. Sometimes...a poor soul does not need a lot of silly "ha ha ha" bullshit. I take a gamble when I post...always hope that I make someone feel better....some I win...some I lose.

I do respect all of you...maybe respect is just the hinge that good manners swings on.
Add good manners to the list....brotherly love...forgiveness....

Serious for a change!

MTF
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