I'mCertain...

I have some friends out there.  Just as certain I have detractors.  I'm not sure of the ratio.  I count most of you, among the first.  Even those among the second have something to offer me.

One of them once compared me to Sysyphus.  The metaphor works well.  With the exception that 'the gods', if such, are on the other side of Righteous.  On reflection I took it as a hint.  The conclusion works for me.

My concern is for friends&Family, more than self.  The results of those personality and IQ tests they like to give (in prep for their boxes and labels) shows I have advantage in IQ regarding spatal, math, logic, reading, and such.  The social quadrant of a circular graph though, shows nil. When I see ongoing dialogue that stops when I show up I get concerned. 

A symptom of my comorbid (that word fasinates me) conditions is that I can hyperfocus on topics/tasks that interest me.  The rest gets relegated to the cyclone of brilliant ideas swirling around without assigned relevence. 

It's a sad fact that I'm not that interested in my own well-being.  Unless it's causing so much pain that I can't focus on anything else or take care of those who depend on me.  I [b]am[/b] interested in how my well-being affects those I am interested in.  What can I do to help, America?  http://www.bornagainamerican.org/index.html I've been depressed and repressed, but I've never died!

I'd fall on my sword in a heartbeat if I thought it would help. 
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Because darkness now rules, when I die, bury me face down...