responseAbility

(Responsibility::Authority)::Ability. How are you at mathematical functions? Possibly having the first thrust on me very early, without the second, lead me to question the third. I was ducking responsibility as early as 17 when I enlisted in the Army. They wanted me to go to West Point, OCS, or (at least) NCOA. I didn't know what was wrong with me or why, but I believed I knew I wasn't able or ready to take on those kinds of responsibilities. (Perception being an individual's reality I was right, at the time. Reality is a fickle mistress!) Being an Army brat with some powers of observation I opted and contracted for WOCS. My SNAFU is to be denied and aspirations where possible, and have unpleasant alternatives thrust upon me. Like Job, I'm still searching for the lesson in that. (did I just answer myself?)

To clarify, I don't shirk responsibility totally. In circumstances where I believe myself to be as able as any available and willing, I will step up. Especially in situations where the consequences will be my own, and not inflicted on the innocent. In vanity I have tackled drug counseling, biomedical engineering, scientific instrument services, fire rescue, and marriage/parenthood. I cling tenaciously to the last.

footNote; wordLinks, iRobt = I relate to them
iRobt, wordLinks = They relate to me